0 00:00:05,303 --> 00:00:08,273 [dramatic music] 1 00:00:08,306 --> 00:00:14,512 * 2 00:00:14,545 --> 00:00:16,514 - Hypothermia set in. 3 00:00:16,547 --> 00:00:18,850 I'm tapping out. I'm done. 4 00:00:18,884 --> 00:00:20,685 I can't take any more. 5 00:00:20,718 --> 00:00:22,587 - I've been working with my spider bites 6 00:00:22,620 --> 00:00:24,089 with the plant medicine. 7 00:00:24,122 --> 00:00:26,825 Oh, yeah, it's totally healing up. 8 00:00:26,858 --> 00:00:28,827 - I've been waking up in the night. 9 00:00:28,860 --> 00:00:31,831 There's a fox going around my shelter. 10 00:00:31,864 --> 00:00:34,100 I just don't know if he's gonna try to bite me. 11 00:00:34,133 --> 00:00:36,368 [rapid banging] 12 00:00:36,402 --> 00:00:38,270 [indistinct growling] - What is that? 13 00:00:38,304 --> 00:00:40,606 - My trail camera's been knocked over. 14 00:00:40,639 --> 00:00:43,675 They're freakin' mocking me. 15 00:00:43,709 --> 00:00:46,112 - This is the hardest terrain. 16 00:00:46,145 --> 00:00:48,514 - Patagonia's a different environment entirely. 17 00:00:48,547 --> 00:00:50,516 - Everything out here is so hard. 18 00:00:50,549 --> 00:00:52,284 - Patagonia's no joke. 19 00:00:52,318 --> 00:00:55,087 - Are you willing to give up who you are 20 00:00:55,121 --> 00:00:56,856 for what you will become? 21 00:00:56,889 --> 00:00:58,224 - It's Patagonia, for God's sakes. 22 00:00:58,257 --> 00:00:59,926 - Patagonia! 23 00:00:59,959 --> 00:01:01,160 - It's tougher than I ever imagined. 24 00:01:01,193 --> 00:01:02,995 - Just missing home right now. 25 00:01:03,029 --> 00:01:04,696 - You get a feeling of helplessness, 26 00:01:04,730 --> 00:01:06,098 like, "Why am I doing this?" 27 00:01:06,132 --> 00:01:08,334 - Oh my...God! 28 00:01:08,367 --> 00:01:11,370 - The last person left wins $500,000 and is a badass. 29 00:01:11,403 --> 00:01:13,005 - Bam! - [groans] 30 00:01:13,039 --> 00:01:14,406 [animal growls] 31 00:01:14,440 --> 00:01:16,008 - What is that? 32 00:01:16,042 --> 00:01:17,609 - It's just how far you can push yourself 33 00:01:17,643 --> 00:01:18,410 and what you're able to do... 34 00:01:18,444 --> 00:01:19,846 - Yeah! [laughs] 35 00:01:19,879 --> 00:01:20,779 - You don't have anyone to lean on. 36 00:01:20,813 --> 00:01:22,448 - Oh, my God, I got a fish! 37 00:01:22,481 --> 00:01:24,683 - Go to bed hungry, wake up hungry. 38 00:01:24,716 --> 00:01:26,052 - I can't believe I did that. 39 00:01:26,085 --> 00:01:27,553 - Ready, guy? 40 00:01:27,586 --> 00:01:28,888 - It's gonna come down to mental endurance 41 00:01:28,921 --> 00:01:29,755 and food deprivation. - [shivers] 42 00:01:29,788 --> 00:01:31,223 - [crying] 43 00:01:31,257 --> 00:01:32,591 - A person would be dead in a week at this rate. 44 00:01:32,624 --> 00:01:35,428 [pig squealing] 45 00:01:35,462 --> 00:01:37,330 - Whoa. That's a big cat. 46 00:01:37,364 --> 00:01:44,371 * 47 00:01:45,699 --> 00:01:51,773 Someone needs to stop Clearway Law. Public shouldn't leave reviews for lawyers. 48 00:01:55,248 --> 00:02:02,322 * 49 00:02:12,299 --> 00:02:18,205 * 50 00:02:29,316 --> 00:02:32,319 [rustling] 51 00:02:34,754 --> 00:02:38,092 - Oh, look at that, there's snow. 52 00:02:38,126 --> 00:02:40,094 Awesome. 53 00:02:40,128 --> 00:02:44,098 * 54 00:02:44,132 --> 00:02:46,901 All right. 55 00:02:46,935 --> 00:02:51,105 It's a winter wonderland out here. 56 00:02:51,139 --> 00:02:52,706 Nice, sticky snow. 57 00:02:52,740 --> 00:02:55,109 * 58 00:02:55,143 --> 00:02:56,510 I'm from Maine. 59 00:02:56,544 --> 00:02:58,546 I love the snow. 60 00:02:58,579 --> 00:03:01,215 It always makes me cheerful. 61 00:03:01,249 --> 00:03:03,417 * 62 00:03:03,451 --> 00:03:06,020 Today, I'm taking the day off, 63 00:03:06,054 --> 00:03:08,222 I'm doing whatever the heck I feel like. 64 00:03:08,256 --> 00:03:09,123 It's a snow day. 65 00:03:11,425 --> 00:03:12,860 Ooh-whee! Man, would you look at that? 66 00:03:12,893 --> 00:03:15,696 Isn't that beautiful? 67 00:03:15,729 --> 00:03:19,600 Snow on the mountains there, the snow across there. 68 00:03:19,633 --> 00:03:24,205 Ah, that reminds me of winter at home. 69 00:03:24,238 --> 00:03:27,175 Gonna be a good day. A good day. 70 00:03:27,208 --> 00:03:29,410 * 71 00:03:29,443 --> 00:03:32,213 I love to build snowmen. 72 00:03:32,246 --> 00:03:34,115 At home, my daughter Abby and I 73 00:03:34,148 --> 00:03:35,616 make snowmen in the snow 74 00:03:35,649 --> 00:03:37,518 and I mess them all up, and she gets mad. 75 00:03:37,551 --> 00:03:41,389 "Pop ruined my snowman!" 76 00:03:41,422 --> 00:03:43,092 That one's for you, Little Pip. 77 00:03:43,125 --> 00:03:45,227 A nice, normal little snowman. 78 00:03:45,260 --> 00:03:48,697 * 79 00:03:48,730 --> 00:03:51,766 And it's got a fish head hat. 80 00:03:51,800 --> 00:03:53,335 And I won't even do anything mean to him 81 00:03:53,368 --> 00:03:55,504 like I do to the ones at home. 82 00:03:55,537 --> 00:03:59,741 * 83 00:03:59,774 --> 00:04:01,843 [chuckling] 84 00:04:01,876 --> 00:04:03,445 Ohh! 85 00:04:03,478 --> 00:04:05,480 [thwacks] 86 00:04:07,482 --> 00:04:11,253 [thwacks] Oh, yeah, right in the nose. 87 00:04:11,286 --> 00:04:13,855 Ah, sorry, Abby! 88 00:04:13,888 --> 00:04:16,858 Your snowman is not gonna make it. 89 00:04:16,891 --> 00:04:18,660 This is fun, but I cannot wait 90 00:04:18,693 --> 00:04:20,262 to be back home again with my family. 91 00:04:24,366 --> 00:04:31,373 * 92 00:04:36,745 --> 00:04:38,080 - Can I talk about cheese? 93 00:04:38,113 --> 00:04:39,681 I freaking love cheese. 94 00:04:39,714 --> 00:04:41,450 I love cheese. 95 00:04:41,483 --> 00:04:44,686 * 96 00:04:44,719 --> 00:04:46,422 Ah! 97 00:04:46,456 --> 00:04:51,194 I had dreams last night, man-- were all about food. 98 00:04:51,227 --> 00:04:53,929 I swore I had to spend half the night 99 00:04:53,963 --> 00:04:57,567 eating one thing of cheese. 100 00:04:57,600 --> 00:05:00,170 Like, deciding if I should sell it 101 00:05:00,203 --> 00:05:03,073 or if I should just eat it. 102 00:05:03,106 --> 00:05:06,676 Eventually--it was a huge freakin' block of cheese. 103 00:05:06,709 --> 00:05:08,611 Eventually, I just ate the whole damn thing. 104 00:05:08,644 --> 00:05:09,679 [chuckles] 105 00:05:09,712 --> 00:05:12,048 I was hanging out with Jose 106 00:05:12,082 --> 00:05:14,450 from season--season two. 107 00:05:16,886 --> 00:05:18,221 [exhales] 108 00:05:18,254 --> 00:05:25,027 * 109 00:05:25,061 --> 00:05:28,598 Take a look at that. 110 00:05:28,631 --> 00:05:31,234 There's snow on the ground. 111 00:05:31,267 --> 00:05:34,070 Whoo! [chuckles] 112 00:05:34,104 --> 00:05:36,406 Snow! 113 00:05:36,439 --> 00:05:39,242 * 114 00:05:39,275 --> 00:05:42,612 Is this amazing, or is this amazing? 115 00:05:42,645 --> 00:05:45,615 Wow. 116 00:05:45,648 --> 00:05:47,217 Wow. 117 00:05:47,250 --> 00:05:48,618 Ahh! 118 00:05:48,651 --> 00:05:50,020 * 119 00:05:50,053 --> 00:05:52,423 Ahh! 120 00:05:52,456 --> 00:05:55,058 This is so beautiful. 121 00:05:55,092 --> 00:05:57,194 * 122 00:05:57,228 --> 00:06:00,397 The snow is gonna help my tracking ability. 123 00:06:00,431 --> 00:06:02,699 Though, I'll lose fishing. 124 00:06:02,733 --> 00:06:04,701 It seems the colder it gets, 125 00:06:04,735 --> 00:06:07,704 the less they stay toward shore. 126 00:06:07,738 --> 00:06:10,073 It's interesting, with the amount of food 127 00:06:10,107 --> 00:06:12,909 and the amount of water that I'm getting, 128 00:06:12,943 --> 00:06:16,280 these lulls of energy, you know, highs and lows, 129 00:06:16,313 --> 00:06:19,049 it's amazing the difference energy-wise. 130 00:06:19,082 --> 00:06:22,286 * 131 00:06:22,319 --> 00:06:24,688 Getting slippery. 132 00:06:24,721 --> 00:06:27,691 Real slippery. 133 00:06:27,724 --> 00:06:33,264 * 134 00:06:33,297 --> 00:06:38,702 I'm thinking about hunger this morning. 135 00:06:38,735 --> 00:06:42,206 My hunger today and no fish today and... 136 00:06:42,239 --> 00:06:47,077 Well, let that go-- there it is. 137 00:06:47,110 --> 00:06:51,715 It amazes me how much I think about food. 138 00:06:51,748 --> 00:06:55,253 You get that food is life out here. 139 00:06:55,287 --> 00:06:59,257 * 140 00:06:59,291 --> 00:07:02,560 Good food... 141 00:07:02,594 --> 00:07:05,530 That's what I'm missing. 142 00:07:05,563 --> 00:07:12,570 * 143 00:07:18,743 --> 00:07:21,513 I feel like my body is deteriorating. 144 00:07:21,546 --> 00:07:23,248 You know, I'm feeling like 145 00:07:23,281 --> 00:07:26,083 I'll probably look like an anorexic here pretty soon, 146 00:07:26,117 --> 00:07:28,253 if I'm not already. 147 00:07:28,286 --> 00:07:31,889 [exhales] 148 00:07:31,923 --> 00:07:38,896 * 149 00:07:46,103 --> 00:07:48,072 - All right, well, I thought I would take us 150 00:07:48,105 --> 00:07:50,508 on a little winter wonderland walk. 151 00:07:50,542 --> 00:07:55,880 You can see, I have on every single layer I own out here. 152 00:07:55,913 --> 00:07:58,684 So I can stay super cozy warm. 153 00:07:58,717 --> 00:08:00,353 Which I am. 154 00:08:00,386 --> 00:08:02,588 And, uh... 155 00:08:02,621 --> 00:08:05,591 Yeah, it's just absolutely stunning. 156 00:08:05,624 --> 00:08:09,628 There's something so peaceful about snow falling, you know? 157 00:08:09,662 --> 00:08:11,564 * 158 00:08:11,597 --> 00:08:14,933 My spider bites are practically all the way healed over. 159 00:08:14,967 --> 00:08:16,935 My glands still have swelling in them, 160 00:08:16,969 --> 00:08:18,937 but it's going down every day. 161 00:08:18,971 --> 00:08:20,939 So beautiful! 162 00:08:20,973 --> 00:08:24,743 * 163 00:08:24,777 --> 00:08:26,545 Bah! 164 00:08:26,579 --> 00:08:28,381 I was gonna go home. 165 00:08:28,414 --> 00:08:30,115 I was going to take care of my body. 166 00:08:30,148 --> 00:08:32,785 But... 167 00:08:32,818 --> 00:08:34,186 I believe that my body will tell me 168 00:08:34,219 --> 00:08:37,890 when it is time to go. 169 00:08:37,923 --> 00:08:40,959 I want to just be strong until the end. 170 00:08:40,993 --> 00:08:44,363 That may be five days, it may be ten days, 171 00:08:44,397 --> 00:08:46,765 may be 20 days, I don't know. 172 00:08:46,799 --> 00:08:50,769 But whatever it is, I want to feel good about it. 173 00:08:50,803 --> 00:08:52,738 * 174 00:08:52,771 --> 00:08:57,943 [heavy breathing] 175 00:08:57,976 --> 00:09:01,448 Snow angel. 176 00:09:01,481 --> 00:09:04,884 Oh, I just love the snow so much. 177 00:09:04,918 --> 00:09:07,521 It's such a winter wonderland here. 178 00:09:07,554 --> 00:09:10,056 * 179 00:09:10,089 --> 00:09:14,227 I think I absolutely could win this. 180 00:09:14,260 --> 00:09:17,063 * 181 00:09:17,096 --> 00:09:20,434 It ain't over yet. 182 00:09:20,467 --> 00:09:24,237 But I'm starting to feel a winding down. 183 00:09:24,270 --> 00:09:31,044 * 184 00:09:41,287 --> 00:09:48,061 * 185 00:09:56,302 --> 00:09:57,537 [fire crackling] 186 00:09:57,571 --> 00:09:59,038 - "How skinny am I?" 187 00:09:59,072 --> 00:10:01,207 is the question that everybody wants to know. 188 00:10:01,240 --> 00:10:03,242 * 189 00:10:03,276 --> 00:10:05,846 I think I lost some weight. 190 00:10:05,880 --> 00:10:08,883 [fire crackling] 191 00:10:12,119 --> 00:10:14,889 Yup, I'm skinny. 192 00:10:22,129 --> 00:10:24,865 [exhales] 193 00:10:24,899 --> 00:10:28,235 Wow, real skinny. 194 00:10:28,268 --> 00:10:33,508 * 195 00:10:33,541 --> 00:10:36,276 Hoping that I could come up with some, you know, 196 00:10:36,310 --> 00:10:39,514 some substantial meat. 197 00:10:39,547 --> 00:10:43,584 If I can get a boar, then we're--we're solid, right? 198 00:10:43,618 --> 00:10:46,587 [stream rushing] 199 00:10:46,621 --> 00:10:50,391 * 200 00:10:50,425 --> 00:10:52,226 Phew! All right. 201 00:10:52,259 --> 00:10:55,229 So I'm just going to string my bow, 202 00:10:55,262 --> 00:10:59,567 and I think we're ready to take off to my blind. 203 00:10:59,600 --> 00:11:01,436 [inhales] 204 00:11:01,469 --> 00:11:03,871 [groans] 205 00:11:03,904 --> 00:11:05,906 Ah. 206 00:11:05,940 --> 00:11:09,277 [chuckles] I got so many clothes on. 207 00:11:09,310 --> 00:11:13,281 And I just tuckered myself out. 208 00:11:13,314 --> 00:11:15,283 [exhales] 209 00:11:15,316 --> 00:11:17,285 Okay. Let's give it another go. 210 00:11:17,318 --> 00:11:21,089 Hopefully. Might not be going to my blind... 211 00:11:21,122 --> 00:11:23,459 [laughs] If I can't string this bow, 212 00:11:23,492 --> 00:11:25,894 * 213 00:11:25,927 --> 00:11:27,463 [exhales deeply] 214 00:11:27,496 --> 00:11:29,097 Come on! 215 00:11:29,130 --> 00:11:32,067 Aww, no! Come on. 216 00:11:32,100 --> 00:11:38,907 * 217 00:11:38,940 --> 00:11:42,678 A little week of low calorie consumption... 218 00:11:42,711 --> 00:11:45,681 [exhales] 219 00:11:45,714 --> 00:11:50,686 * 220 00:11:50,719 --> 00:11:52,688 [yells] 221 00:11:52,721 --> 00:11:57,693 [bleep]! 222 00:11:57,726 --> 00:11:59,895 Ahhh! 223 00:12:02,798 --> 00:12:06,334 If I can't string my bow, 224 00:12:06,367 --> 00:12:07,903 hunting's out. 225 00:12:11,973 --> 00:12:13,375 Damn it! 226 00:12:17,313 --> 00:12:20,282 [dramatic music] 227 00:12:20,316 --> 00:12:27,089 * 228 00:12:37,333 --> 00:12:44,106 * 229 00:12:54,316 --> 00:13:01,157 * 230 00:13:08,130 --> 00:13:10,533 - I want to have energy. 231 00:13:10,567 --> 00:13:14,436 Energy so that I could work out and do something, and like, 232 00:13:14,470 --> 00:13:16,438 build my muscles again. 233 00:13:16,472 --> 00:13:19,710 * 234 00:13:19,743 --> 00:13:22,079 Well, first, I started eating a whole fish, 235 00:13:22,112 --> 00:13:24,081 and then I came to this realization, 236 00:13:24,114 --> 00:13:27,551 "Well, okay, let's start-- let's start saving up." 237 00:13:27,585 --> 00:13:30,754 A couple nice fillets right there. 238 00:13:30,788 --> 00:13:34,124 I fillet them out, dry them. 239 00:13:34,157 --> 00:13:36,860 Two fillets, one body. 240 00:13:36,894 --> 00:13:39,897 Head goes in the stew. 241 00:13:39,930 --> 00:13:43,233 Each fish lasts me three to six days. 242 00:13:43,266 --> 00:13:45,468 * 243 00:13:45,502 --> 00:13:50,440 If I have food stored away, then I know I'm doing well. 244 00:13:52,910 --> 00:13:56,213 And I know I can continue here. 245 00:13:56,246 --> 00:13:58,048 I've got... 246 00:14:00,283 --> 00:14:03,353 33 halves of fish. 247 00:14:03,386 --> 00:14:05,422 Filleted for stew. 248 00:14:05,455 --> 00:14:06,857 That's 33 days. 249 00:14:06,890 --> 00:14:10,594 If I can make that go every other day... 250 00:14:10,628 --> 00:14:13,864 * 251 00:14:13,897 --> 00:14:18,401 If I can do every other day with 33 fish, that's two months. 252 00:14:18,435 --> 00:14:20,037 * 253 00:14:20,070 --> 00:14:22,573 Two more months that I can be out here. 254 00:14:22,607 --> 00:14:24,375 * 255 00:14:24,408 --> 00:14:27,245 Ah, greens. 256 00:14:27,278 --> 00:14:32,416 But I do want to be healthy, and there's a lot of food. 257 00:14:32,450 --> 00:14:39,223 * 258 00:14:39,257 --> 00:14:41,025 I'm having this once every other day. 259 00:14:41,059 --> 00:14:43,027 * 260 00:14:43,061 --> 00:14:44,428 I want to stay here. 261 00:14:44,462 --> 00:14:46,197 I love this land. 262 00:14:46,230 --> 00:14:48,032 * 263 00:14:48,066 --> 00:14:54,172 Third of a fish, greens, mushrooms. 264 00:14:54,205 --> 00:15:01,079 * 265 00:15:01,112 --> 00:15:04,282 And it is just life. 266 00:15:04,315 --> 00:15:06,250 [blows air] 267 00:15:06,284 --> 00:15:12,991 * 268 00:15:15,927 --> 00:15:18,629 [birds chirping] 269 00:15:18,663 --> 00:15:23,301 * 270 00:15:23,334 --> 00:15:26,105 [birds cawing] 271 00:15:28,307 --> 00:15:31,711 - Sounds like geese. 272 00:15:34,914 --> 00:15:38,050 They're around the island. 273 00:15:38,083 --> 00:15:40,085 Looks like they're eating on the bulrushes. 274 00:15:40,119 --> 00:15:42,387 [geese honking] 275 00:15:42,421 --> 00:15:44,423 It would be really, really awesome 276 00:15:44,456 --> 00:15:46,792 if I could catch a goose. 277 00:15:51,563 --> 00:15:54,066 Maybe they'll come over here. 278 00:15:54,099 --> 00:16:00,940 * 279 00:16:05,110 --> 00:16:08,280 In preparation for the geese coming back, 280 00:16:08,313 --> 00:16:11,683 I'm gonna make two bolas. 281 00:16:11,717 --> 00:16:13,252 I got some rocks. 282 00:16:13,285 --> 00:16:16,255 I'm just gonna... 283 00:16:16,288 --> 00:16:19,524 Tie it around. 284 00:16:19,558 --> 00:16:22,561 And when you throw it, 285 00:16:22,594 --> 00:16:25,097 they'll all spread out 286 00:16:25,130 --> 00:16:30,303 and hopefully entangle a bird so that it can't fly. 287 00:16:30,336 --> 00:16:32,205 Got two sets. 288 00:16:32,238 --> 00:16:36,542 One's a little bit longer and heavier than the other. 289 00:16:36,576 --> 00:16:39,345 Means I have two throws. 290 00:16:39,379 --> 00:16:42,548 * 291 00:16:42,582 --> 00:16:44,785 [geese honking] 292 00:16:44,818 --> 00:16:48,789 I just heard the geese and I looked down my trail, 293 00:16:48,822 --> 00:16:50,623 and they did just come over here. 294 00:16:50,656 --> 00:16:54,560 * 295 00:16:54,594 --> 00:16:56,562 [whispers] Right there. 296 00:16:56,596 --> 00:16:59,399 * 297 00:16:59,432 --> 00:17:03,870 And I'm gonna sneak down there and try to catch one. 298 00:17:03,904 --> 00:17:10,911 * 299 00:17:12,578 --> 00:17:15,381 Gonna be quite the task. 300 00:17:15,415 --> 00:17:17,550 Sneaking around. 301 00:17:17,583 --> 00:17:19,752 Just has to be the right timing. 302 00:17:19,786 --> 00:17:21,955 * 303 00:17:21,988 --> 00:17:25,191 Got that sweaty, nervous armpit feeling. 304 00:17:25,225 --> 00:17:31,965 * 305 00:17:38,339 --> 00:17:41,275 [dramatic music] 306 00:17:41,308 --> 00:17:48,082 * 307 00:17:52,319 --> 00:17:54,922 [geese honking] 308 00:17:54,956 --> 00:17:59,193 - I just heard the geese. 309 00:17:59,226 --> 00:18:03,630 And I'm gonna sneak down there and try to catch one. 310 00:18:03,664 --> 00:18:10,671 * 311 00:18:16,110 --> 00:18:18,880 [geese honking] 312 00:18:22,116 --> 00:18:25,452 Well... 313 00:18:25,486 --> 00:18:27,721 I didn't even... 314 00:18:27,754 --> 00:18:30,457 Hardly get within sight of them, 315 00:18:30,491 --> 00:18:32,693 sneaking around, 316 00:18:32,726 --> 00:18:35,096 and they spooked. 317 00:18:35,129 --> 00:18:38,733 * 318 00:18:38,766 --> 00:18:42,804 Getting protein--it's been a challenge and a struggle. 319 00:18:45,307 --> 00:18:49,277 It weighs on me. 320 00:18:49,311 --> 00:18:52,180 What I want the most out here is just 321 00:18:52,214 --> 00:18:54,883 the meat. 322 00:18:54,917 --> 00:18:58,353 Without that extra calories, 323 00:18:58,386 --> 00:19:03,125 I don't know if I can keep going on plants alone. 324 00:19:03,158 --> 00:19:09,932 * 325 00:19:20,175 --> 00:19:23,946 * 326 00:19:23,979 --> 00:19:27,182 - So, um, I had a pretty good sleep. 327 00:19:27,215 --> 00:19:29,117 The fox hasn't been around for the last couple of days. 328 00:19:29,151 --> 00:19:32,720 Or else he's just, um, not being aggressive, 329 00:19:32,754 --> 00:19:34,222 trying to get into the shelter. 330 00:19:34,256 --> 00:19:38,860 * 331 00:19:38,893 --> 00:19:41,264 That is the fox. 332 00:19:41,297 --> 00:19:43,266 Oh, my gosh. 333 00:19:43,299 --> 00:19:48,271 But I had some... good dreams too, 334 00:19:48,304 --> 00:19:53,442 about seeing my family and just spending time together. 335 00:19:53,476 --> 00:19:55,278 [exhales] 336 00:19:55,311 --> 00:19:58,247 Today is my, um, son's sixth birthday. 337 00:20:02,918 --> 00:20:04,520 And that totally breaks my heart 338 00:20:04,553 --> 00:20:06,089 that I can't be there with him. 339 00:20:08,557 --> 00:20:11,294 Hey, buddy, I miss you and I love you so much. 340 00:20:11,327 --> 00:20:13,929 And your sister too. 341 00:20:13,963 --> 00:20:15,264 Ahh, and I'll make it up to you guys 342 00:20:15,298 --> 00:20:16,899 when I get home. 343 00:20:23,572 --> 00:20:25,141 [waves crashing] 344 00:20:25,174 --> 00:20:27,543 Well, I'll check fish traps. 345 00:20:27,576 --> 00:20:29,278 There's a lot of snow on the hill today. 346 00:20:29,312 --> 00:20:33,282 * 347 00:20:33,316 --> 00:20:36,119 No fish. 348 00:20:36,152 --> 00:20:37,086 Hmm. 349 00:20:40,223 --> 00:20:42,958 Oh, fish in my stomach right now would be amazing. 350 00:20:46,963 --> 00:20:48,565 My number one priority right now 351 00:20:48,598 --> 00:20:50,567 is trying to get some protein. 352 00:20:50,600 --> 00:20:52,136 And if the fish just dried up, 353 00:20:52,169 --> 00:20:54,238 then I'm just gonna start focusing on birds. 354 00:20:54,271 --> 00:20:57,874 [wind whistling] 355 00:20:57,907 --> 00:21:02,879 I'd like to make a-- a bird trap. 356 00:21:02,912 --> 00:21:06,116 I'm gonna make a box with reeds. 357 00:21:06,150 --> 00:21:09,886 And, um, there'll be four more pieces for wood on the top, 358 00:21:09,919 --> 00:21:11,588 and then I'll tie them all together, 359 00:21:11,621 --> 00:21:13,690 and the box will fall down onto a bird when they trigger 360 00:21:13,723 --> 00:21:15,692 the trigger line. 361 00:21:15,725 --> 00:21:19,263 * 362 00:21:19,296 --> 00:21:21,465 And the birds around here--I haven't seen very many big ones, 363 00:21:21,498 --> 00:21:23,867 so this doesn't have to be huge. 364 00:21:23,900 --> 00:21:26,636 * 365 00:21:26,670 --> 00:21:29,273 Okay. 366 00:21:29,306 --> 00:21:32,276 So there's one side of the box. 367 00:21:32,309 --> 00:21:33,877 Just trying to keep myself busy, 368 00:21:33,910 --> 00:21:36,413 keep myself off my... 369 00:21:36,446 --> 00:21:37,947 Dwelling on the fact that 370 00:21:37,981 --> 00:21:40,850 it's my little boy's birthday today. 371 00:21:40,884 --> 00:21:42,852 It's the first birthday I've missed. 372 00:21:42,886 --> 00:21:45,889 * 373 00:21:45,922 --> 00:21:49,860 Gosh, I miss my children so much--and my husband. 374 00:21:49,894 --> 00:21:52,063 And just being alone, away from them, 375 00:21:52,097 --> 00:21:54,232 just makes me really appreciate 376 00:21:54,265 --> 00:21:57,202 how good I have it. 377 00:21:57,235 --> 00:22:01,706 There was a bit of my rose hips that... 378 00:22:01,739 --> 00:22:03,474 Something I got into the first couple of days. 379 00:22:03,508 --> 00:22:05,210 They're kind of rotting now, and I had saved them. 380 00:22:05,243 --> 00:22:09,013 I save almost everything just in case I want to use it. 381 00:22:09,046 --> 00:22:11,349 So what you do is, do a little bit of a trail 382 00:22:11,382 --> 00:22:14,752 leading up to the box. 383 00:22:14,785 --> 00:22:18,823 And then throw a handful in the box. 384 00:22:21,759 --> 00:22:24,729 And then the animal would go towards that. 385 00:22:24,762 --> 00:22:27,098 And your edge of the box should just be resting 386 00:22:27,132 --> 00:22:30,901 on the one stick, not on the pegs. 387 00:22:30,935 --> 00:22:34,905 And that's it. 388 00:22:34,939 --> 00:22:41,946 * 389 00:22:51,923 --> 00:22:58,930 * 390 00:23:03,135 --> 00:23:05,904 [fire crackling] 391 00:23:10,142 --> 00:23:11,810 - What did we achieve today? 392 00:23:15,314 --> 00:23:17,516 This is my wizard staff journal, 393 00:23:17,549 --> 00:23:20,085 the story of my adventure here. 394 00:23:20,118 --> 00:23:21,687 The special things that happened, 395 00:23:21,720 --> 00:23:25,090 with the symbols, I can remember it. 396 00:23:25,123 --> 00:23:27,693 All right, today... 397 00:23:27,726 --> 00:23:29,461 Fire, 'cause we kept it going. 398 00:23:29,495 --> 00:23:31,263 Little old man and his cane, 399 00:23:31,297 --> 00:23:34,032 crutch and--grabbing his back, going, "Ohh, my back." 400 00:23:34,065 --> 00:23:36,702 That's my physical feel now. 401 00:23:36,735 --> 00:23:38,270 * 402 00:23:38,304 --> 00:23:40,272 Making things makes me happy. 403 00:23:40,306 --> 00:23:42,874 Keep myself from getting bored. 404 00:23:42,908 --> 00:23:45,076 Smoothed out my thimble. 405 00:23:45,110 --> 00:23:46,645 I find that it is very important 406 00:23:46,678 --> 00:23:48,414 to keep your mind busy, 407 00:23:48,447 --> 00:23:50,882 especially after 4:00. 408 00:23:50,916 --> 00:23:53,252 4:00, you're used to going home 409 00:23:53,285 --> 00:23:55,053 and being with your family. 410 00:23:55,086 --> 00:23:58,258 I have this little wizarding wand I'm making here. 411 00:23:58,291 --> 00:24:01,127 [fire crackling] 412 00:24:03,563 --> 00:24:04,897 [sighs] Sometimes, it's hard to work 413 00:24:04,931 --> 00:24:07,267 on stuff for them. 414 00:24:07,300 --> 00:24:10,303 [fire crackling] 415 00:24:12,739 --> 00:24:15,742 I miss them all so much. 416 00:24:18,511 --> 00:24:21,514 [fire crackling] 417 00:24:27,320 --> 00:24:30,290 [dramatic music] 418 00:24:30,323 --> 00:24:37,096 * 419 00:24:47,340 --> 00:24:54,113 * 420 00:25:04,325 --> 00:25:07,528 * 421 00:25:07,561 --> 00:25:09,096 - Now I know what wildlife goes through 422 00:25:09,129 --> 00:25:11,399 when the weather gets rough. 423 00:25:11,432 --> 00:25:13,401 Have to really scrounge for their food. 424 00:25:13,434 --> 00:25:16,203 I have a new appreciation for... 425 00:25:16,236 --> 00:25:20,207 What animals in the forest have to go through. 426 00:25:20,240 --> 00:25:24,778 * 427 00:25:24,812 --> 00:25:26,213 You can tell things are changing. 428 00:25:26,246 --> 00:25:28,215 Like, the fish don't seem to be biting. 429 00:25:28,248 --> 00:25:30,183 There's no mushrooms left. 430 00:25:30,217 --> 00:25:33,186 Some of the forage material's, um, turning. 431 00:25:33,220 --> 00:25:35,756 And now I'm gonna focus just on birds. 432 00:25:35,789 --> 00:25:39,026 I finished a bird box. 433 00:25:39,059 --> 00:25:40,561 I have to go back to see if they were triggered. 434 00:25:40,594 --> 00:25:42,363 * 435 00:25:42,396 --> 00:25:44,565 [bleep]. 436 00:25:44,598 --> 00:25:46,199 [bleep]. 437 00:25:46,233 --> 00:25:48,035 Oh, I just checked my bird box, 438 00:25:48,068 --> 00:25:52,806 and something triggered it but managed to get out. 439 00:25:52,840 --> 00:25:55,208 'Cause all the bait inside has been eaten. 440 00:25:55,242 --> 00:25:57,578 I'll have to fix it and reset it. 441 00:25:57,611 --> 00:25:59,613 * 442 00:25:59,647 --> 00:26:02,082 I'm going to check out my hare snares 443 00:26:02,115 --> 00:26:05,219 and my fox snare at the top of the hill. 444 00:26:05,253 --> 00:26:12,260 * 445 00:26:14,929 --> 00:26:16,898 This is getting long, this journey. 446 00:26:16,931 --> 00:26:18,900 * 447 00:26:18,933 --> 00:26:20,469 It's not as fun anymore. 448 00:26:20,502 --> 00:26:22,737 * 449 00:26:22,771 --> 00:26:24,906 The weather's turned to [bleep]. 450 00:26:24,939 --> 00:26:27,275 I'm starving. 451 00:26:27,308 --> 00:26:28,710 It's cold. 452 00:26:28,743 --> 00:26:31,746 * 453 00:26:31,780 --> 00:26:34,315 I'm running on very, very low energy. 454 00:26:34,349 --> 00:26:36,284 * 455 00:26:36,317 --> 00:26:38,252 Oh, it'd be so nice to get a rabbit. 456 00:26:38,286 --> 00:26:40,254 * 457 00:26:40,288 --> 00:26:42,256 Oh, my gosh. 458 00:26:42,290 --> 00:26:43,892 * 459 00:26:43,925 --> 00:26:45,093 Great. 460 00:26:45,126 --> 00:26:47,295 * 461 00:26:47,328 --> 00:26:48,262 I did have it. 462 00:26:48,296 --> 00:26:49,698 Ugh. 463 00:26:49,731 --> 00:26:51,466 * 464 00:26:51,500 --> 00:26:53,267 Man, oh, man. 465 00:26:53,301 --> 00:26:56,104 Jeez, Louise. 466 00:26:56,137 --> 00:26:57,906 Look at that. 467 00:26:57,939 --> 00:27:00,742 That is a fluffy, fat rabbit. 468 00:27:00,775 --> 00:27:04,413 There's all this new fur from the rabbit, 469 00:27:04,446 --> 00:27:07,583 and I thought maybe it had just bumped into this bush, 470 00:27:07,617 --> 00:27:13,956 but it ripped out... 471 00:27:13,989 --> 00:27:16,025 * 472 00:27:16,058 --> 00:27:18,628 There's a snare here, so it obviously got stuck 473 00:27:18,661 --> 00:27:22,398 in the snare and then ripped its way out of it 474 00:27:22,432 --> 00:27:25,200 and got caught up in there for a bit. 475 00:27:25,234 --> 00:27:26,569 Super frustrating. 476 00:27:26,602 --> 00:27:27,970 I almost had that rabbit... 477 00:27:28,003 --> 00:27:29,371 Again. 478 00:27:29,405 --> 00:27:34,610 * 479 00:27:34,644 --> 00:27:37,246 This is definitely one of the harder days I've had. 480 00:27:37,279 --> 00:27:38,548 [rain falling] 481 00:27:38,581 --> 00:27:40,816 And it's really rainy. 482 00:27:40,850 --> 00:27:43,619 I'm running on very limited calories right now, 483 00:27:43,653 --> 00:27:47,256 and, um, I'm trying to really conserve energy, and... 484 00:27:47,289 --> 00:27:51,260 And also just be really careful about getting too cold, 485 00:27:51,293 --> 00:27:53,262 which will drain energy from my body as well, 486 00:27:53,295 --> 00:27:55,431 and I don't want to get sick. 487 00:27:55,465 --> 00:28:02,337 * 488 00:28:12,282 --> 00:28:18,855 * 489 00:28:18,889 --> 00:28:20,423 - Yup. 490 00:28:20,457 --> 00:28:22,859 We got one. 491 00:28:22,893 --> 00:28:25,261 Boo-ya! 492 00:28:25,295 --> 00:28:27,664 Boo. Ya. 493 00:28:30,501 --> 00:28:32,969 Boo-ya, baby. We got fish. 494 00:28:35,506 --> 00:28:37,641 Hey, hey, ho, hey, hey. 495 00:28:37,674 --> 00:28:40,711 Oh, beautiful fish. 496 00:28:40,744 --> 00:28:43,880 Thank you so much for your life. 497 00:28:43,914 --> 00:28:46,082 [thwacking] 498 00:28:46,116 --> 00:28:47,651 * 499 00:28:47,684 --> 00:28:51,622 We have got a beauty here. 500 00:28:51,655 --> 00:28:58,662 * 501 00:29:00,997 --> 00:29:02,966 Thank you! 502 00:29:02,999 --> 00:29:04,635 Whoo-whoo! 503 00:29:04,668 --> 00:29:06,970 * 504 00:29:07,003 --> 00:29:09,573 Whoa, lots of eggs. 505 00:29:09,606 --> 00:29:11,575 Oh, I'm sorry, mama. 506 00:29:11,608 --> 00:29:15,580 * 507 00:29:15,613 --> 00:29:17,982 Check out all those eggs. 508 00:29:18,015 --> 00:29:22,720 * 509 00:29:22,754 --> 00:29:26,123 [whistles] 510 00:29:26,157 --> 00:29:28,359 Whoa, roe. 511 00:29:28,392 --> 00:29:31,295 * 512 00:29:31,328 --> 00:29:35,567 We are going to prep this up for feasting. 513 00:29:35,600 --> 00:29:38,202 * 514 00:29:38,235 --> 00:29:42,974 We have had an abundant forage today. 515 00:29:43,007 --> 00:29:45,977 Let me just show you this really fast. 516 00:29:46,010 --> 00:29:47,779 Look at this. 517 00:29:47,812 --> 00:29:49,581 Look at that. 518 00:29:49,614 --> 00:29:50,782 We've got our fish. 519 00:29:50,815 --> 00:29:52,416 Our fish roe. 520 00:29:52,449 --> 00:29:54,552 A ridiculous amount of greens. 521 00:29:54,586 --> 00:29:58,590 And, uh, lots of mushies. 522 00:29:58,623 --> 00:30:00,558 I love a good feast from the land. 523 00:30:00,592 --> 00:30:02,193 * 524 00:30:02,226 --> 00:30:04,195 This land has been so good to me. 525 00:30:04,228 --> 00:30:06,197 * 526 00:30:06,230 --> 00:30:08,766 Given me good food. 527 00:30:08,800 --> 00:30:10,768 Good medicine. 528 00:30:10,802 --> 00:30:13,905 * 529 00:30:13,938 --> 00:30:17,742 The last couple days have given me such... 530 00:30:17,775 --> 00:30:22,915 Reflection on the journey. 531 00:30:22,948 --> 00:30:25,718 I think I came into this 532 00:30:25,751 --> 00:30:28,320 with way too much competitive nature, 533 00:30:28,353 --> 00:30:31,724 and I put a lot of pressure on myself-- 534 00:30:31,757 --> 00:30:34,459 that I didn't even realize I had--to win, 535 00:30:34,492 --> 00:30:37,362 to buy my land. 536 00:30:37,395 --> 00:30:41,533 And I think my body took on a lot of that stress. 537 00:30:41,566 --> 00:30:46,104 And suddenly, when I let go... 538 00:30:46,138 --> 00:30:49,942 It gave me this profound release. 539 00:30:49,975 --> 00:30:53,278 I'm starting to feel the call home. 540 00:30:53,311 --> 00:30:55,247 [rain falling] 541 00:30:55,280 --> 00:30:59,484 * Pa-a-a-tagonia's 542 00:30:59,517 --> 00:31:04,957 * Been calling me back to my home * 543 00:31:04,990 --> 00:31:09,194 * Pa-a-a-tagonia's 544 00:31:09,227 --> 00:31:14,366 * Been calling me back to my home * 545 00:31:14,399 --> 00:31:17,369 * And if home is where I land * 546 00:31:17,402 --> 00:31:21,707 * Then the land's my home 547 00:31:21,740 --> 00:31:27,380 * If home is where I stand, then I'm standing alone * 548 00:31:27,413 --> 00:31:33,586 * If home is where I land, then the land's my home * 549 00:31:33,619 --> 00:31:38,925 * If home is where I stand, then I'm standing alone * 550 00:31:44,330 --> 00:31:47,300 [dramatic music] 551 00:31:47,333 --> 00:31:54,107 * 552 00:32:04,183 --> 00:32:11,190 * 553 00:32:21,167 --> 00:32:26,807 * 554 00:32:26,841 --> 00:32:30,410 - Such a constant battle, trying to get... 555 00:32:30,444 --> 00:32:34,048 Traps set up, traps re-set up after weather, 556 00:32:34,081 --> 00:32:38,786 traps re-set up after animals run through them. 557 00:32:38,819 --> 00:32:42,056 Trying to get bait. 558 00:32:42,089 --> 00:32:45,359 It's such a constant struggle trying to get food out here. 559 00:32:45,392 --> 00:32:49,596 * 560 00:32:49,629 --> 00:32:51,598 At least I manage to forage quite a bit, 561 00:32:51,631 --> 00:32:53,367 so at least I'm getting some food in me. 562 00:32:53,400 --> 00:32:55,602 * 563 00:32:55,635 --> 00:32:58,372 I need to keep eating and keep calories coming in. 564 00:32:58,405 --> 00:33:00,207 * 565 00:33:00,240 --> 00:33:04,879 But, uh, the protein is this constant chase. 566 00:33:04,912 --> 00:33:08,883 I need to catch more fish. 567 00:33:08,916 --> 00:33:11,485 Those reeds out there... 568 00:33:11,518 --> 00:33:13,220 Are my nemesis. 569 00:33:13,253 --> 00:33:15,089 It's not the best lake to try to set a gill net, 570 00:33:15,122 --> 00:33:16,323 as I found out. 571 00:33:16,356 --> 00:33:19,293 [water splashing] 572 00:33:19,326 --> 00:33:23,063 Ah! [bleep]. 573 00:33:23,097 --> 00:33:26,100 Ugh! 574 00:33:26,133 --> 00:33:28,936 Just looking at my gill net, 575 00:33:28,969 --> 00:33:32,941 and nothing appears to be in it, so I'm gonna pull it, 576 00:33:32,974 --> 00:33:36,111 and, uh, probably use it for some other-- 577 00:33:36,144 --> 00:33:38,113 other stuff. 578 00:33:38,146 --> 00:33:40,115 So I'm just making this, uh, dip net. 579 00:33:40,148 --> 00:33:43,751 Taking my gill net, which I cut in half, 580 00:33:43,785 --> 00:33:45,821 and then I've sewn up the sides here 581 00:33:45,854 --> 00:33:48,957 to make a bit of a pouch. 582 00:33:48,990 --> 00:33:51,292 This is the 20-pound test line that I just cut down 583 00:33:51,326 --> 00:33:53,294 the other day that never caught me fish. 584 00:33:53,328 --> 00:33:55,730 * 585 00:33:55,763 --> 00:33:57,899 I could pull this string to tighten it up at the top 586 00:33:57,933 --> 00:33:59,300 if it's stuck on reeds, 587 00:33:59,334 --> 00:34:01,202 so the fish doesn't get out the top. 588 00:34:01,236 --> 00:34:03,038 And, uh... 589 00:34:03,071 --> 00:34:05,773 Then when I go to use it again, I just loosen it. 590 00:34:05,807 --> 00:34:08,376 * 591 00:34:08,409 --> 00:34:10,378 My dip net. 592 00:34:10,411 --> 00:34:17,218 * 593 00:34:17,252 --> 00:34:19,587 I'm checking some of the fishing lines. 594 00:34:19,620 --> 00:34:22,623 [waves lapping] 595 00:34:25,326 --> 00:34:28,263 There's a fish. Awesome. 596 00:34:28,296 --> 00:34:30,531 Oh, my goodness. 597 00:34:30,565 --> 00:34:33,134 So I have a fish caught on the reeds. 598 00:34:33,168 --> 00:34:36,105 I'm gonna try out my, uh, dip net that I made. 599 00:34:36,138 --> 00:34:41,710 * 600 00:34:41,743 --> 00:34:44,313 Oh, it's cold. 601 00:34:44,346 --> 00:34:46,782 Definitely do not want to fall in and get wet. 602 00:34:46,815 --> 00:34:47,917 * 603 00:34:47,950 --> 00:34:50,319 Whoa! It's so deep. 604 00:34:50,352 --> 00:34:52,554 * 605 00:34:52,588 --> 00:34:54,924 He's not very huge, but... 606 00:34:54,957 --> 00:34:57,326 Definitely give me some protein. 607 00:34:57,359 --> 00:35:03,365 * 608 00:35:03,399 --> 00:35:04,766 [bleep]. 609 00:35:09,138 --> 00:35:10,706 Oh, my God, I got him. 610 00:35:10,739 --> 00:35:13,910 My dip net works. I got him. 611 00:35:13,943 --> 00:35:15,711 I'm so happy. 612 00:35:15,744 --> 00:35:17,279 Oh, my gosh. 613 00:35:17,313 --> 00:35:18,480 Oh... 614 00:35:18,514 --> 00:35:21,550 Yes! 615 00:35:21,583 --> 00:35:25,121 I'm gonna mark--I'm gonna patent that net system, 616 00:35:25,154 --> 00:35:28,124 for when you're fishing in Patagonia alone. 617 00:35:28,157 --> 00:35:29,725 This is what you need. 618 00:35:29,758 --> 00:35:33,095 Ah, I'm so excited. A fish! 619 00:35:33,129 --> 00:35:34,897 Ah. 620 00:35:34,931 --> 00:35:37,299 * 621 00:35:37,333 --> 00:35:40,037 It's amazing...the cycle. 622 00:35:40,070 --> 00:35:42,439 It's like drought... 623 00:35:42,472 --> 00:35:44,607 And then you actually get a little bit of something 624 00:35:44,641 --> 00:35:47,444 that helps get you more things. 625 00:35:47,477 --> 00:35:50,280 There are so many lessons to be learned from nature. 626 00:35:50,313 --> 00:35:55,052 And I want my children to at least be exposed to that. 627 00:35:55,085 --> 00:35:59,056 There will be hurdles and challenges. 628 00:35:59,089 --> 00:36:01,358 Nothing worthwhile comes easy. 629 00:36:03,961 --> 00:36:10,934 * 630 00:36:17,674 --> 00:36:20,277 - [sighs] 631 00:36:20,310 --> 00:36:23,680 * 632 00:36:28,518 --> 00:36:31,288 Every day, I feel, "Yay! 633 00:36:31,321 --> 00:36:33,290 It's a good day to be alive." You know? 634 00:36:33,323 --> 00:36:37,627 This is great. This is quite the adventure. 635 00:36:37,660 --> 00:36:40,830 And as night draws on and I become more tired... 636 00:36:43,734 --> 00:36:47,438 And it's like, "Ugh. 637 00:36:47,471 --> 00:36:49,040 "Can't wait for this to be over, 638 00:36:49,073 --> 00:36:51,742 I want to be at home doing my thing there." 639 00:36:55,146 --> 00:36:56,947 Ah! I feel like the man who struggles 640 00:36:56,981 --> 00:37:00,718 with becoming a werewolf at night, you know? 641 00:37:00,751 --> 00:37:03,887 * 642 00:37:03,921 --> 00:37:06,224 Firewood land. 643 00:37:06,257 --> 00:37:10,628 * 644 00:37:10,661 --> 00:37:14,965 Start with grabbing that big log. 645 00:37:14,999 --> 00:37:16,967 [grunts] 646 00:37:17,001 --> 00:37:20,371 This thing's heavy. 647 00:37:20,404 --> 00:37:25,043 [groaning] 648 00:37:25,076 --> 00:37:27,378 Missing the comforts of home even more today 649 00:37:27,411 --> 00:37:30,381 than I have for days. 650 00:37:30,414 --> 00:37:32,816 * 651 00:37:32,850 --> 00:37:35,786 The more I try not to think about them, the more I do. 652 00:37:35,819 --> 00:37:37,955 * 653 00:37:37,988 --> 00:37:40,824 Well, this is not the good-bye we thought of. 654 00:37:40,858 --> 00:37:42,426 There's the car on the side of the road. 655 00:37:42,460 --> 00:37:44,628 Our rescuer's here in a Subaru. 656 00:37:44,662 --> 00:37:46,965 I love you, hon. I love you, Sparrow. 657 00:37:46,998 --> 00:37:50,802 I had to leave my wife and my two daughters 658 00:37:50,835 --> 00:37:53,405 with our new vehicle broke down on the side of the road. 659 00:37:53,438 --> 00:37:55,407 I'll see you when I get back, okay? 660 00:37:55,440 --> 00:37:57,042 While I had to hitchhike a ride to the airport 661 00:37:57,076 --> 00:37:58,777 to come to Patagonia. 662 00:37:58,810 --> 00:38:00,879 [overlapping chatter] 663 00:38:00,912 --> 00:38:03,482 I love you, Sparrow. 664 00:38:03,515 --> 00:38:06,451 Not able to say good-bye at the airport... 665 00:38:06,485 --> 00:38:09,454 That was horrible. 666 00:38:09,488 --> 00:38:11,490 * 667 00:38:11,523 --> 00:38:13,592 [sniffles] 668 00:38:13,625 --> 00:38:14,826 [exhales] 669 00:38:17,662 --> 00:38:21,566 When you're out here by yourself... 670 00:38:21,600 --> 00:38:23,202 [inhales] 671 00:38:23,235 --> 00:38:26,505 You think about family and how much they mean to you. 672 00:38:28,607 --> 00:38:30,809 The weight, 673 00:38:30,842 --> 00:38:32,777 the gravity on your chest is just... 674 00:38:35,614 --> 00:38:37,282 So strong. 675 00:38:40,619 --> 00:38:43,855 The pull on my heart... 676 00:38:45,624 --> 00:38:49,329 To be with them... 677 00:38:49,362 --> 00:38:55,768 Those two little girls of mine and that beautiful wife... 678 00:38:55,801 --> 00:38:57,303 It's so hard. 679 00:39:04,444 --> 00:39:07,147 [dramatic music] 680 00:39:07,180 --> 00:39:14,187 * 681 00:39:22,428 --> 00:39:25,398 [birds chirping] 682 00:39:25,431 --> 00:39:28,934 [electronic beep] 683 00:39:28,968 --> 00:39:31,937 [beeping] 684 00:39:31,971 --> 00:39:35,308 [birds chirping] 685 00:39:35,341 --> 00:39:38,944 [beep] 686 00:39:38,978 --> 00:39:43,749 - Hey, so I am officially... 687 00:39:43,783 --> 00:39:47,953 Tapping out. 688 00:39:47,987 --> 00:39:50,956 Thanks. Okay, bye. 689 00:39:50,990 --> 00:39:54,127 [water lapping] 690 00:39:54,161 --> 00:39:55,962 Well, that's it. 691 00:39:55,996 --> 00:39:57,331 Wow. 692 00:39:57,364 --> 00:40:00,100 That was easy. 693 00:40:00,133 --> 00:40:03,370 Crazy! 694 00:40:03,404 --> 00:40:06,307 [waves lapping] 695 00:40:06,340 --> 00:40:09,343 Whoa. 696 00:40:16,583 --> 00:40:19,586 [inhales and sniffles] 697 00:40:24,191 --> 00:40:26,960 [sighs] 698 00:40:32,165 --> 00:40:34,368 [exhales] 699 00:40:34,401 --> 00:40:35,536 [sniffles] 700 00:40:35,569 --> 00:40:38,572 [laughing] 701 00:40:43,977 --> 00:40:50,951 * 702 00:40:58,360 --> 00:41:02,264 [laughing] 703 00:41:02,297 --> 00:41:04,266 Ohh. 704 00:41:04,299 --> 00:41:06,801 [laughing] 705 00:41:06,834 --> 00:41:09,203 Hey, guys. 706 00:41:09,237 --> 00:41:11,205 Wow. 707 00:41:11,239 --> 00:41:14,242 * 708 00:41:14,276 --> 00:41:17,245 [chuckling] 709 00:41:17,279 --> 00:41:18,646 - It feels... 710 00:41:18,680 --> 00:41:20,615 It's so mixed emotions. 711 00:41:20,648 --> 00:41:23,084 Yeah. But it feels great. 712 00:41:23,117 --> 00:41:26,454 You know, I kind of decided, uh, yesterday. 713 00:41:26,488 --> 00:41:29,424 I didn't want to leave on any other terms 714 00:41:29,457 --> 00:41:34,496 but feeling complete in the journey, and I do. 715 00:41:34,529 --> 00:41:36,564 * 716 00:41:36,598 --> 00:41:39,133 From the beginning, I saw this experience 717 00:41:39,166 --> 00:41:43,305 as an opportunity to buy my land and to have 718 00:41:43,338 --> 00:41:45,907 this outcome of me winning. 719 00:41:45,940 --> 00:41:47,809 And at a certain point, 720 00:41:47,842 --> 00:41:49,911 I saw that I was holding too tightly 721 00:41:49,944 --> 00:41:52,314 to this material goal. 722 00:41:52,347 --> 00:41:54,949 But when we hold so tightly to something, 723 00:41:54,982 --> 00:41:58,553 we don't allow other things to come in. 724 00:41:58,586 --> 00:42:02,625 I had to shed that, and when I did, I realized, 725 00:42:02,658 --> 00:42:06,061 it doesn't matter what the outcome to any situation is. 726 00:42:06,094 --> 00:42:08,063 It's about being in this moment. 727 00:42:08,096 --> 00:42:10,799 It's about the journey and finding a deeper sense 728 00:42:10,833 --> 00:42:12,835 of my own voice. 729 00:42:12,868 --> 00:42:15,971 Finding a deeper sense of my own self-worth. 730 00:42:16,004 --> 00:42:18,941 And by being out here for so long, 731 00:42:18,974 --> 00:42:21,209 truly on your own, 732 00:42:21,243 --> 00:42:23,579 you develop this relationship with yourself 733 00:42:23,612 --> 00:42:26,248 that is so profound. 734 00:42:26,281 --> 00:42:28,617 And I communicate with myself in a way that 735 00:42:28,651 --> 00:42:31,053 I never thought possible. 736 00:42:31,086 --> 00:42:33,789 I only can imagine how this is gonna serve me 737 00:42:33,822 --> 00:42:36,425 in the rest of my life. 738 00:42:36,459 --> 00:42:37,760 [dramatic swell] 739 00:42:37,793 --> 00:42:39,662 - Yes, yes, oh, my goodness. A fish. 740 00:42:39,695 --> 00:42:41,330 I was not expecting that. 741 00:42:41,364 --> 00:42:44,066 - I'm gonna eat tonight. Oh, no! 742 00:42:44,099 --> 00:42:45,968 Things are not going well. 743 00:42:46,001 --> 00:42:48,103 - I'm getting quite thin. 744 00:42:48,136 --> 00:42:50,238 I definitely feel like I'm living each day here 745 00:42:50,272 --> 00:42:52,475 as if it could be my last day. 746 00:42:52,508 --> 00:42:53,976 - [sighs] 747 00:42:54,009 --> 00:42:57,112 It's amazing how breathing is so difficult 748 00:42:57,145 --> 00:42:59,247 when you don't have a lot of calories. 749 00:42:59,281 --> 00:43:00,449 [yells] 750 00:43:00,483 --> 00:43:03,285 [dramatic music] 751 00:43:03,318 --> 00:43:04,754 * 752 00:43:06,043 --> 00:44:06,298 Someone needs to stop Clearway Law. Public shouldn't leave reviews for lawyers.